ISSUE â„– 

03

a literary journal in multiple timezones

Mar. 2024

ISSUE â„– 

03

a literary journal in multiple timezones

Mar. 2024

The Mongrels

The Midwest
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The Mongrels

A half-mile from the Canadian border I said,

what are you going to do in Montreal, you idiot—panhandle? You don’t
speak French. What’ll be different there? You’ll still be you, and
that’s something you can’t ever change.

That alone seemed like a good enough reason to turn back. Plus, I didn’t
have a passport. So my days would have to blur together someplace less
exotic.

For nine hours, I stuck mostly to Route 11, a quiet, two-lane country road
with a terminus in New Orleans. I figured that’d be a nice place to clear
my head, or to fill it with nonsense.

Snaking along the Susquehanna, I battled the static of a diminishing radio
signal, straining to hear my favorite song by Supertramp. Like always, I
was startled by the slide whistle. Such a whimsical surprise in such a
melancholy song. My life had been rotten with surprises, and very few of
them were whimsical. I felt I could be logical about it, though. Or at
least detached.

When I crossed the Mason-Dixon, the DJ announced the time: 4:45 AM. That
meant I’d been chugging along for three days straight on two hours’ sleep
and probably needed to pull over.

Past a bar called the Weepy Flea and a town called Toe (Pop. 1177), there
was a stretch of marshland, shimmering faintly with prairie cordgrass and
clusters of cattails. A fluorescent glow rose on the horizon, and upon
rounding the bend, to my surprise, I saw a modern convention center teeming
with people. My first impulse was to sleep in the parking lot, but when I
saw General Admission to the “Greater Toe Dog Show” only cost $2.50, I
scraped ten quarters out of my glovebox and took the chance. When you’re
living from your car, the possibility of a clean restroom is something like
a Holy Grail.

The facility was a vast open area with a warehouse ceiling, partitioned
into eighths by tall velvet curtains and lined with metal bleachers. A
banner hung from above, announcing the dog show’s theme as if it were prom.
It said, “The Ravening Wolf.”

After using the restroom (good, solid A–), I pushed past a clutch of
children bearing deep-fried dough and sat in the “Agility” section. It
would be nice to get my money’s worth before I nodded off, and the signs
marked “Obedience” and “Hygiene” hadn’t sparked my interest.

Three seats to my left, there was an old, scraggly-haired woman slurping a
bowl of fettuccine. Between bites, she lifted her oxygen mask, turned a
knob on the tank and breathed deeply. With each tortured gasp, rivulets of
Alfredo sauce dripped and fogged up inside the transparent plastic. At least I have it better than her, I thought. It’s not really living out here, is it?

Though it’s funny how quickly a life can unravel. A patch of bad luck,
a few medical bills, and the next thing you know, you’re on your last
bankruptcy, driving past a city limits sign that says This Town Was
Built on Moonshine and Dynamite.

A greasy, goat-bearded eccentric sat down beside me and began writing
furiously in his notepad. “Say, stranger,” he whispered, “you know how to
spell ‘guillotine?'”

“Nah,” I said, focusing on the hoops, hurdles, and ladders on the AstroTurf
below. A well-groomed Scottie dog was deftly leaping her way through the
obstacles while a Jack Russell and his owner waited in the wings. The owner
offered him what looked like a nugget of steak tartare, probably more
appetizing than anything I’d eaten in years.

As my stomach rumbled, something in the air shifted slightly, or darkened,
and I heard a sudden and high-frequency whistle driving like a spike
through my skull. I perceived no reaction from the others, save for one
pigeon-chested boy who plugged his ears with his pinkie fingers. The
Scottie ascended the ladder in a blur, fading black, and that terrible
shriek seemed to fill the world…

#

When I came to, my nose burned, and I could hear a scuffling, a general
bristling of the crowd. I saw two people removed from the audience on
stretchers, moist white sheets clinging to their bodies. The boy’s seat was
empty.

“You should really try to stay awake,” said the goat-bearded man.
He was holding a small white packet beneath my nose.

“What is that?” I asked.

“Smelling salts. I always keep a pack. I work at a funeral home.”

“Uh, thanks,” I said, distracted by the hairless dog stiffly running the
course on long, splindly limbs. Only later, when the world darkened and the
high-pitched shriek began anew, did I realize this figure was a naked
woman. In the wings, the pigeon-chested boy rested on all fours, waiting
his turn, a choke collar cutting into the flesh of his neck. It would be
simpler for him now.

I squeezed my head between my hands as the whistle screamed on, the
goat-bearded man lowered his head in defeat, and the old woman held her
mouth agape, a long strand of fettuccine slithering out from between her
lips. My head roared with pain in a steady stream, like blood guttering
from a split scalp, and then I fully detached, a man no longer, the lobes
of my brain peeling apart like Velcro, ripping, ripping…

#

From a distance, the hunter who found my body thought I was some pervert’s
discarded blow-up doll, my mouth wide open, arms and legs bent at ninety
degrees, body stiff and fishbelly white. Before the authorities arrived, he
removed the leash from my neck. It jingled like a handful of coins as he
balled it up and heaved. It landed among the cattails, a soft clunk of
metal on a mound of wet earth. The tag read, DID NOT PLACE.

At supper that evening, solemn-faced, the hunter muttered to his family, “I
‘member a time when a man could die with dignity,” though when his wife
pressed him for particulars, he couldn’t provide them.

Edited by: Joyland Editors
Sean Gill
Sean Gill is writer and filmmaker from Akron, Ohio who won the 2016 Sonora Review Fiction Prize, the 2017 River Styx Micro-Fiction Contest, and The Cincinnati Review's 2017 Robert and Adele Schiff Award in Prose. He studied with Werner Herzog, documented public defenders for National Geographic, and graduated from Oberlin College with the Comfort Starr Prize in History. Other recent work appears in The Iowa Review, McSweeney's, and Hobart. http://www.seangillfilms.com/