ISSUE № 

03

a literary journal in multiple timezones

Mar. 2024

ISSUE № 

03

a literary journal in multiple timezones

Mar. 2024

An Aesthetics of Rat Bites

Consulate
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An Aesthetics of Rat Bites

Always, I am overcome by their beauty. My lungs tighten in my chest and the
color of my blood brightens. I run my hands over the marking. “Bite” seems
to me to be the wrong word, inadequate, the skin is not broken exactly,
there are no teeth marks, only a slightly scalded appearance, as if the
skin has been burned or scraped, gnarled rather than pierced.

Compared to the bites of predators—the lion, the crocodile, the great white
shark that inhabits these waters, they are insignificant, lacking in drama.
Biology determines this. The shark is a solitary swimmer, eating is how it
interacts. This makes the bite very physical—the shark comes with it, not
just as a wounding of the flesh but something material, predatory and
projectile, a break in the water, a blue-grey fin that circles and then the
setting: the endless ocean that glitters, how the water churns and then
closes over.

With rats, it is different, they are communal, travel in packs. Their nests
seethe. Their bites present themselves in clusters, not so much
organization as orgiastic, a clump of welts without differentiation,
multiple punctures, stunted, small and hard, often scattered across the
extremities, especially the upper extremities: the face, arms and hands,
the feet and the ankles.

Context is important. When and where the bites occur: largely at night and
mostly in low-income areas. Those bitten are mostly children, of either
sex, and often under five-years in age. In most cases, mysterious blushed
birthmarks dot a toddler’s skin in the morning, especially moist areas—the
mouth, the nose, the creases of the elbows, as well as the genitals. This
often leads to misidentification. Parents mistake rat bites for other
harmless gripes—eczema and scabies and canker sores.

The situation is exacerbated by the social conditions under which many bite
victims are forced to live. High bite rates are recorded amongst the ill,
the elderly, among premature babies and patients recovering from surgery,
drug addicts. Inhabitants of townships and informal settlements are
especially prone, because of their financial precariousness, the lack of
government services to these areas and the shakiness of the accommodation:
apartheid-era living conditions that persist despite democracy, housing
structures rapidly constructed on the fringes of the city, shacks composed
of cheap, untreated wood and overlapping corrugated iron sheets that leave
gaping clefts in the walls and ceiling, allowing in wind and wet. And rats.

Initially my documentation takes the form of field trips, expeditions into
urban slums, seeking out illegal rubbish dumps, condemned and abandoned
buildings in industrial neighborhoods. From under bridge, to skyscraper.
One particular building, the walls are long gone, the roof has been
stripped, the sun comes in through the rafters at an angle. Everything
tilts. The whole frame looks perilous, posts like skinned ribs. I walk
beneath them, climb gingerly over slippery planks. Still, there are people.
I call out and they emerge from the shadows. Young men and boys in their
late teens, wayfarers and tick-heads. Their pace is languid but I see the
aggression in their bodies, how they look at me with hooded eyes. They do
not understand my interest but I give them money and they allow me
entrance, bare their bodies to reveal lattices of ink tattoos, numbers and
symbols, other marks, etched deeper, scars and abrasions.

Zooming in, I have to remind myself that the bites are in and of themselves
mostly harmless. Unlike with a shark bite, death is not contained in the
actual wounding, the shock of torn flesh or the bleeding that comes after.
It is not expressed, merely suggested, in the promise of future plagues and
contamination, the possibility of rat bite fever or other diseases and
infections.

Over time, I have learned to ignore these warnings, to swallow my fear and
suppress pity, to gaze behind the mask of perceived tragedy and seek out
something deeper, a secret script, a pattern embedded in the skin of those
bitten—framed, distorted and endlessly repeated. Each time, I am amazed at
how the broken, displaced and afflicted body becomes a fertile ground of
beauty, how each bite reveals a specific shape, an abstraction into whose
depths I press my hands. I have the fingers for it…

I lean in to examine a toddler’s knees and elbows. There are small but
noticeable deficiencies, blemishes and scratches. These are the physical
attributes; the ones I can touch and describe. There are other,
psychological ones, which go much deeper. They are not within my ambit. I
constrain my documentation to the afflicted area, adjust focus to capture
only the lesions themselves.

My collection so far includes hundreds of photographs. Pictures, strewn,
curled at the edges. Limbs of children and babies, elbows and shoulders
dislocated from arms, streaked with red grazes, fading to pink toward the
edges; brown fretwork abrasions etched across mouths and under noses, and
raised pockmarks in the cleft of an elbow. Repetition is key here. Not just
in the regularity of the attacks but the multiplicity of the wounds
themselves, which mostly take the form of surface injuries, lacerations and
abrasions that result in various forms of ecchymoses and haematomas. It is
these that give the bites their extraordinary colours and textures. You see
little pinks and long reds. Deep browns that bleed into gradations of warm
honey-yellow and light-pale blue-purples. At times the bites are raised in
texture: macules, plaques, papules or nodules, which can range in size from
a few millimetres to large confluent areas many centimetres in diameter.

Sometimes the surface forms defy description. Behind my computer, flicking
through the images, I see things, shining shapes like polished rat
incisors, the twirl of a tail or curve of a distended claw. I run my hands
over the screen’s lacquered surface and it is almost as if I can feel a
cavity, something coiled and gnawingly familiar. Usually, I transfer the
photographs to sketches. I use photoshop to trace the outlines. I print the
results and file them. I am trying to find a pattern that will incorporate
all the bites—the full spectrum of lacerations and abrasions. At night, I
often lie awake trying to remember each one, each bite inflicted on skin. I
have endless images that I hold against each other, then against the light.

The decision to turn the camera on myself is a necessary progression. I
grow tired of forever straining my eyes for traces, blinking against tricks
of the light. The children, surly boys and girls with knees drawn up,
staring at me with that fixed look, and the babies who confront my gaze
with accusing dimples. Each encounter leaves me hollow, a pit I fill with
theory stolen from post-colonial documentary photography and ethnographic
studies. I tell myself I am without blame so long as I remain conscious of
my context, my privileged position, the political issues that are inherent
to race relations and the crisis of photographic representation in
postcolonial Africa.

My skin is smooth, unblemished and pale as duck fat. It burns easily. The
mud stains my ankles as I walk through the settlement, past dilapidated
shacks where abject children eye me blankly. The house is set slightly
apart, off from the street. As soon as I enter the boy starts to cry. The
mother is embarrassed, tries to shush the child but this only makes him
scream louder. His face is a fist. His arms and legs thrash against her
grip. I see the defiance in his eyes as I try to approach, slowly, hand
outstretched, camera ready. The boy’s teeth are small but sharp. The mark
they leave is a grinning half-moon. I laugh about it, tell the mother not
to worry, say, I’ll come back at another time when it is more convenient…
but we both know I am lying.

Back home my arm accuses me. The bite mouths warnings, barely audible
whispers shiver again my skin, nest in my bloodstream. The eye of my camera
blinks black. I switch it on and scroll through the options, select:
“delete all.” My digital studio is easy to pack. I move into a new area.
The rent is half what I used to pay. I sign the lease without seeing the
apartment, but it turns out better than I expected. A bedroom and a
bathroom and a small kitchen. The area is transitory, my neighbours are
mostly immigrant families, newly arrived, mothers working two jobs to
survive and young people who could be students or drug dealers or both or
neither.

I give my life over to the chaos that surrounds me, leave dishes unwashed
and let my rubbish accumulate in the passageway. Outside the air is heavy
and dead. Rank smells, empty streets, narrow alleys and shadows. There is
no grass between buildings. Too many toxins in the soil, too much lead and
blood. I walk and talk to people. I see things, a shimmer of stagnant water
and a whiff of rot. I close my eyes and picture future armies of rodents
gnawing their way through our cities, nesting in our accumulated human
waste, a seismic flood tide birthing new generations. It is somehow
egalitarian—the perfect leveler. In this future, wealth and race will offer
no protection. Rats do not discriminate. Capitalism will collapse under the
collective weight of rat infestation. Rodents will travel in packs from the
outskirts inwards.

Already it has started, see how they overrun the sewers, descending by
drainpipes into the gutters, the mouth of the tunnel, the yawning darkness
of the alleyways—so much better adapted to the urban environment than we
are. I map the passages, secret routes that run up from the storm-water
drains, through metal grates and into the street where the waste from a
McDonald’s stagnates, rotting. The pavement is cracked. The garbage
seethes, alive with vermin. The truck arrives and uploads them, offers free
transport to the rich suburbs and enclosed shopping malls.

It’s only a matter of time. Soon we will all suffer from bites, to such an
extent that society will have to learn to adapt, to integrate the rats into
the general weave of our cultural and moral aesthetic. A language will
develop, new words and expressions to replace staid medical discourse.
Tunneling sentences punctuated with dark nouns and gauze-like verbs. Music
will open itself up to gravelly hisses and high pitch squealing tones,
shape-shifting melody and pitter-patter beats. Fashion too will evolve, I
picture bodies buried under musky fur coats, young men in sharp metallic
chokers and small dark women draped in strange fabrics—rat bite paisleys,
toile and tribal weaves bearing distinctive teeth marks, filigree patterns:
urban wear performing sort of reverse camouflage, not to make bites
invisible, but hyper-visible, rat bites rendered synonymous with skin
surface, no distance between the bite and those bitten.

A few weeks after moving in, I rig up a surveillance system in my bedroom.
The technician tells me he is studying computer engineering part-time while
he mounts cameras and runs wires from the ceiling. I see how he looks at
me, my squalid living conditions versus the price of the equipment; its
specific placement so as to cover the bed from every angle. He licks his
lips and I see predatory desire flicker in his eyes. Maybe he is right, in
a way. I am always surprised by the footage. The bareness of it is what
snags me. The rawness especially. I notice this on the skin of my arms and
legs in contrast to the tops of my breasts, where the surface is, I think,
damp and gleaming against the sheer vest I sleep in, my cleavage poking
through the fabric, and the thin glimpse of my thighs, firm and
resplendent, through the pale sheeting.

I lie, my body heavy, on the half-empty bed, twisting, spinning. My mind
cartwheels. I think about movement. I contemplate it. Try to imagine the
smallest part of myself—my arm, my forearm, my hands rising up to protect
my face, tearing off the bedding. My feet lifting. On the screen I am dead,
so still that I’m not sure if I am breathing. My eyelids flutter, a sign of
life. I can blink. But I can’t move my mouth. Something terrible is
happening on the screen, something devastating. But I can’t do anything.
It’s like those bad dreams when your body is unresponsive, paralysed. I
can’t whisper. I can’t scream. My legs feel numb, distant.

Move, I say in my head when the first rat comes. One and then two, inching
towards something. And then too many to count, to keep count of because of
how they are racing, their speed and dexterity, the multiple journeys of
approaching and then vanishing. They swarm zigzags. Some slither. Some
spring. Others hop. They amass: thronging, fervent, flexile. By then it is
too late. They swirl downwards in an expanding mass that overflows, slips
between the sheets, between my inner thighs, scrambles against the soft
skin between the lips and my nose, my mouth.

In the morning, I am thrown awake, sprung from the tangled mess of a dream.
My cheeks burn. My mouth is dry. It feels dirty. I stand slowly and survey
the room, thick with early-morning quiet. I am hungover from the sleeping
pills taken the night before. Still, I am shocked by my appearance. It
wakes me, wrenches me out of my stupor. The multiple abrasions on my thighs
and forearms. They seem shocking, unclean, or overly revealing. I touch
them lightly, wince at the wet of flesh, at how my fingers come away
bloody. It is much worse on my face where the bites accrue. They bunch
together around my lips, form twists, coiled and fretted like bruises.

I go back to my bedroom to fetch some equipment. I take a selfie, close up,
zoomed into my mouth.

I smile for the camera.

Edited by: Joyland Editors
Stacy Hardy
Stacy Hardy is a writer based in Grahamstown, South Africa. She is an editor at the pan African journal Chimurenga, a founder of Black Ghost Books and a teacher at Rhodes University. Because the Night, an anthology of her fiction, was recently published by Pocko Books, London. She is currently working on a new collection that explores the intersection of the human body and the body of text via the tropes of disease and animality.